I take it back, really, I do!

Tracking numbers are my favorites... I can see that my Clandestine hoodie is in Moncton! THAT'S LIKE, 40 minutes away! *gimme hands*

Everyday, I set my alarm for 7am, and every day, I wake up at 6:47am. Every single day. I have yet to have waken up in this apartment to my alarm. When I was on the ship, I got into the habit of napping if I had more than half an hour. And here, I can't do it. If I wake up at 6am, I know I have an hour to sleep before I have to get up, but I can't do it. I can't go back to sleep. It's like, I anticipate my alarm and want to avoid it at all costs.

RE: Perez Hilton and Will.I.Am- I don't like violence, but I do have to say, Perez was gonna have to take responsibility for his profession at some point, especially where, unlike TMZ and other gossip companies, he's just one person who is easily singled out. It just sucks it had to be the way it was. There are really no victims in this little scandal, only instigators. They're all at fault.

Paparazzi and people who make a living out of exploiting the lives and image of others, like Perez, make no apologies for what they do. When they suddenly come face to face with the people they hurt and exploit, they sing a different tune.

I definitely don't think anyone was right to hit anyone else, and don't even get me started on how ridiculous gangstery ol' Fergie is, but I am saying that Perez shouldn't be surprised that it happened. He gave as good as he got.

And as for John Mayer, well, we know his thoughts on the situation, and we knew long ago his position on paparazzi and gossip bloggers (did anyone else read the open letter to the Government of California about his general safety?), so nobody should be a) surprised or b) angry that he's insensitive to Perez's plight. And for those of you who are, I remind you that Perez has been known for similar insensitivity towards other people he's blasted in his blog.

Ugh, I've been secretly coveting that plaid Clandestine hoodie for months. Months, I tell you, and they were sold out and then restocked and now almost sold out again... I bought it. Finally, I just bought it.

Make me feel better about it, please.

Missing frakkkkkkkkkking Hey Rosetta! at the Roadhouse tonight because I'm exhausted and have to work in the AM.

Also, for the record, being kicked out of your house sucks. Apartment hunting. Looked at some tonight, looking at the one that I hope will be the answer on Sunday. The first thing I'm gonna do in my new place is set up my record player. Since I haven't had a stable home/ a place of my own for almost two years, this is exciting for me. I can finally listen to my vinyl copies of Folie a Deux and Up the Bracket, my two latest additions.

I think Pete Wentz is a witch. And he put a spell on me. Like, he took off his jacket and jumped into the crowd (like he always does) and talked about selling out corporate blah blah blah (like everyone always does), and even though I am sensible and not ridiculous, I was just like, ♥_♥!! I even said to larebear, "I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SAY OR THINK OR ANYTHING, I JUST LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I DO!" And then the next day, I felt kinda dirty. Like I've been used, or gypped, or something. NO IDEA. Still maybe kinda love him though, so like. Long-lasting effects, this spell's got.

Hey cats, I had a Fall Out Boy last night. But even (surprisingly? Unsurprisingly?) more importantly, I had Cobras. And they were grood (not a typo). Also, they managed to convert two totally unsuspecting non-believers (I'm not talking about me, obviously!). It happens! Chatted with Suarez a bit, because yeah, I'm a fangirl, let's face it. I'm a subtle one, at least, and not a creepy one, but one nonetheless.

The most hilarity was brought on, though, when the dude from Hey Monday, I dunno which one or whathaveyou, came out in front of the barrier between bands to sign some autographs for some girls. Security wouldn't let him back in because they thought he had crowd-surfed over the barrier and he didn't have any pass or ID. He kept insisting that he was int he band that had just played and motioning wildly towards the stage, but it honestly took them about twenty minutes to let him in. At least he laughed about it.

In the Fall Out Boy department, Saturday was hands down my favorite tune and I liked Patrick's everything.

Dear Trace Cyrus: be less creepy please. PS: stop rapping?

1. Rewatching Buffy season seven with the brothers. "It eats you starting with your bottom." Enough said.

2. Had a really bad day today. Highlights include: being told by someone that he can't stand living with me, my car not starting and having no-holds-barred honesty yelling matches with a coworker who used to be a friend. Buffy makes it better.

3. Is it really bad for you to lie on your back with your laptop on your chest or stomach? Like, am I getting fried like a microwaves or anything? Because it kinda feels like it.

4. I refuse to watch the Pete Wentz pee roulette thing. Refuse. Disgusting. This kinda gives me hope, because I was recently at the point of "it's Pete Wentz, I'll back anything he does". Good to know I still have my free will.

5. I have, however, played Hotel 626. JFC!

6. I recently read Neil Gaiman's The Graveyard Book, and would like to add me extreme appreciation to the pile. Not only did I enjoy this book immensely, but I would have killed for this book when I was younger. Everything about it appeals to 9-year-old Virginia, most of all Liza Hempstock. Considering two of my favorite books as a child were Magic for Marigold and The Witch of Blackbird Pond, I know my copy would have been very dogeared. I have so much I want to say about these books themes and undertones, but I haven't been in school for over a year now and feel like I couldn't say them correctly.

7. While we're on the subject, am I the ONLY child that read Magic for Marigold? I have yet to find a single other person who's read it, young or old.

8. I'm going to see Fleetwood Mac in exactly one week.

I forgot to mention that me and the girls have tickets to the Fall Out Boy show in Lowell, Mass for April 28th. Very exciting news, because of COBRAS. Is it weird that sometimes I'm more excited to see the Cobra kids than the kings of awesome?

So for the last, well, almost a year, I've had no money in my bank account. But alas, the inevitable has started to happen. Since I am in possession of a small amount of money from my job at sea and subsequently deposited that money into the bank, the government has started taking it from me. Oh well, welcome home from the sea, welcome back to reality, Virginia.

In music news, I'm picking things back up again, getting some shows organized with the promoter and such. We're opening for a band called the Watermen (http://www.watermen.ca/), who I've actually never heard. I don't know anything about them, but my little brother saw them and actually said they weren't very good. I'm reserving judgement for myself, but Max usually has solid taste. Also, I'm working on some new songs, both for my band and my solo stuff. Max and I have been experimenting with a little project called "Under for Tea", which requires writing some songs, so I'll keep you updated on that.

In the meantime, if you missed the demo half a year ago when I posted it, you can listen or download it:
March 3rd
Parallel to Me
Quiet People (Are Better in Bed)
Downpour

Check out the last.fm if you're bored, too.

I finally picked up Folie a Deux today, and obviously since I like Fall Out Boy, I like it. See, here's the thing. If you're a fan who's hated everything apres Take This to Your Grave, or even just hated Infinity, then yeah, you're gonna hate this new album. But if you're the kind of person who loved Infinity, I don't see how you could not like this one.

I love this one. I am, I am happy to say, unashamed about my love of Fall Out Boy's music. In all it's wonderfully melodic and produced glory. I love love love it.

C'est tout.

... and I'm gonna quit this crazy scene.

Hi, y'all. Guess who doesn't have Folie a Deux yet? Why yes, you're correct, it is the girl stuck on a ship in the middle of international waters.

Hi, I'm not dead!

1. I will never get sick of this video. Nights like this are what it's all about, and I don't mean bandom wise. I mean in general. Songs, music, sounds so much better in this setting. Life looks so much better from this setting. Saturday ♥.

2. I finally got the chance to see Twilight. It was in Puerto Rico, and it was subtitled in Spanish, but I saw it. I liked it, haha. It was either because a) I liked the books and so therefore am under Edward Cullen's spell or b) because I hadn't seen a movie in an actual theatre and it was amazing. I can recognize that if I hadn't read the books, I might have been like, 0_o. Mostly, I wanted to see more Cullens, and I thought the baseball scene was well done. Supermassive Black Hole, ♥. And Edward, haha, shiny. ♥

3. I bought Panic at the Disco; Live in Chicago the day I saw the movie because I was at the mall. It has saved my life in the last few days. Watching them, watching Brendon alone could have lifted my spirits. But it's just all of them, and Ryan, Ryan is having a blast, and I'm so proud of them. It's a dvd I'd actually SHOW people. I now put it on whenever I can't sleep. I can't believe how on they are, especially for Esteban. ♥

4. As shirethief has informed me, Pete Doherty is doing a Who show with Roger Daltry. Hi, yes, please. Good lord, that's one of the hottest things I can think of.

5. I want you all to know that the SOLE reason I don't have a Christmas icon uploaded (or ten) is because I ran out of my userpic add-on and don't want to delete all my icons until I can add it back on. And to upload one to use, I'd have to lose them all. So when I use any, just picture a Christmas one until the day after X-mas.

6. I feel like I've lsot my livejournal, which is sad for me. It's been a big part of my life, and in a very positive way. It's made me happy for the last few years, and now I can't be a part of it anymore. I can only wait until February, when I have access and time, and I wonder; will I be so out of the loop then that it will be impossible to get back in? Already, in the hour I get here and there, when I check my flist for the first time in weeks, I feel like I have no idea what's going on. In the lives of my lj friends, with communities, with challenges and fic-a-thons, etc. And yeah, maybe that's pathetic, and maybe I live my own life now, but it was a part of my life that's made me happy, and I want it to continue to do so. I can only implore you; don't lose me.

Whenever I'm on the rag, which by the way is right now, I constantly have the song "Bloodclot" by Rancid in my head. Also, I hate calling it "the rag", so I don't know why I just did. I prefer calling it my period. Anyways, yes, the song. Constantly, in my head. Yay.

I'm going to name my baby Shere Khan. And no, I'm not kidding. Most hardcore name in the world. But, really, I like Bronx, so everyone else can suck it. Or just, you know. Have their opinions.

I've decided to say SCREW ALL THIS IGNORING CHRISTMAS STUFF. People have been telling me that to get through Christmas, I should just pretend it's not there, that it's just any other day, and that then I won't be sad. Christmas is my favorite time of year, my very favorite holiday, AND SO THEREFORE I've decided that I am NOT going to be ignorning it. I'm going to continue doing what I do every year: being very obnoxiously in love with Christmas, and decorating and playing music. I'm going to be HAPPY at Christmas, simply because it's Christmas. I GET TO WEAR AN ELF SUIT. And sure, maybe I'll shed a few tears on that day for lack of my family and friends, but it'll still be Christmas. So I went to the Stop 'N Shop and bought some garland and some bells and ribbon. BECAUSE, though Christmas has never put a scrap of gold or silver in my pocket, I believe that it has done me good, and will do me good; AND I SAY GOD BLESS IT.

Now, I just need to find a way to get a copy of Muppet's Christmas Carol in time for Christmas, and it'll all be alright.

Things!

1. I find my lack of Gossip Girl disturbing.

2. Guess what time of year it is? THE MOST WONDERFUL ONE. (Sucks to you're asthmar Americans with your strangely placed Thanksgiving.)

3. Any mini!Wentz's running around yet? COME ON, COME ON.

4. There are 761 kids on my cruise ship right now. There are 15 Youth Staff to look after them. Does anyone wanna pull my hair out for me, or shall I just do it myself?

I'm really, really sad right now. I think it's because in fifteen days, give or take, I would normally start my months-long Christmas celebration. I can't do that here. I can't do it because it's all about the build up, the anticipation, and here? For Christmas? There's nothing to build up to. I won't watch my brothers open their carefully selected Christmas presents, won't get to see Mom mainline coffee all morning, won't watch Andrew watch Basketball at Nana's and fight with Janet over whether or not we can eat cookies for Breakfast. There won't be any Bowie or Bing. There will just be me in my cabin. Okay, that's a lie. There might be lots and lots of rum and a few of my new friends here. And there might be 24 hours of A Christmas Story on the crew channels.

I spent yesteday in Halifax with my father. And while I love spending time with him, and though we went to every music shop we could find, it sucked because the whole time felt like we were counting down. I teared up when I said goodbye to him in the terminal, and watched him walk away. Being sad? Makes me mellowdramatic.

And What a Catch, Donnie is certainly not helping matters any. I feel like I've reverted back to 12-year-old mode, what with the crying and the listening to sad songs and the wallowing. "I've got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match"? How many thousands of people can relate to that, I ask you? Tons.

I need cheering. Of the major persuasion.

Can someone order me this shirt? It would kinda make my whole life, since I cancelled my credit card.

And so, I'm confused. Did Pete write a book or not? I have no internet time with which to research this. Anyone wanna give me the run down?

If you don't know why Fall Out Boy is absolutely rocking my world right now, I'll link you to why. And. My favorite are that Brendon and Ashlee are in on it, too. Ashlee's just... ugh, lovehate, baby, lovehate. They're using the paparazzi to bamboozle the public into looking into the new FOB album. http://www.citizensforourbetterment.com/

Instead of doing anything at all yesterday, I dropped $120 on a birthday present for my littlest brother, Johnny (Mario Kart Wii and an extra controller and some other little stuff), and watched The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (the first one) with Jamie. To mourn how much the new one will be of the suck.

"(edit: this picture definitely does not show how sweet this chain is. its like a diamond garfield with batteries in it and it weights as much as ryan ross)"

hahaha shut up, Pete. I wish I could pinpoint my exact turn-around from "jesus, shut the fuck up, douchebag" to "say more things because I love every word you say".

"Yeah. Most of my friends are not famous people, and it's hard for me to talk my way into getting them into the clubs. So it's more fun to make our own club."
- Pete Wentz in Newsweek

This is awesome and so incredibly true. Because I have no idea what Ryan Ross and say, Gabe Saporta would do with like, Hyde or Butter something. Well actually. I don't know what those places would do with them. Because Gabe would absolutely fuck shit up, and Ryan would, like, stand in the corner, but he'd be RYAN ROSS, and he'd look like Ryan, so everyone would be incredibly confused. And yeah. The real "clubs" are just not ready for our boys. They are so above that scene, it's ridiculous.

And the funny thing is, Ryan Ross and company would be like, shit, I don't even want to be here at all, let's go hotbox the hotel bathroom. Where Gabe and company would be like, hells yes, let's go fuck Lindsay Lohan! But they're all welcome at, say, Angels and Kings, and they are all VIP there, and Pete would rather be there, or anywhere with them, than with the most famous people in the entire would. Even if those people would actually spare him a second glance.

Question: So you don't miss making out with guys?

Pete Wentz: This is what is going to be put on my tombstone, 'cause I said it, like, one time. But no, I will not miss it.

That's because you haven't stopped, Pete, you adorable little thing, you.

(This icon is appropriate on so many levels.)

Pete Wentz, shut you stupid, ADORABLE, AMAZING FACE.

"thank god for the invention of the text message when ryan ross is in europe."

BECAUSE THEY ARE BEST FRIENDS. And it is AWESOME. And we know Pete's like, "RYAN, I feel displaced and emotional and like I don't belong in this world" and Ryan's like, "come save me from walking off a window sill, or I'll sleep in the rain", and Pete's like, "I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU MEAN". Only all of that wouldn't be spelled as nicely. I love love love that our text messaging fanon is canon. ♥

In other musical news, Elton John is coming in September. And I can't even go, because guess when I'm off to the Caribbean? IN SEPTEMBER. Man, this job is gonna be such a test. Here is a list of the things I'm gonna miss:
- a hypothetical fall Panic tour
- Elton John in September
- Backstreet Boys in September (this one is less important, but it woulda been fun for the nostalgia).
- Christmas, don't even get me started

I'm thinking of making a blog for my travels, but it would be more for my real life people, so they can be updated on the newz. I'd obviously still be attached to my lj like it were air. Or maybe in lieu of said blog, a email newsletter. We'll see.

My car tunes at the moment are Led Zeppelin III, Sublime's Gold collection and The Academy Is...'s Almost Here. Do you have any idea how hard it is for me to choose every time I get into the car? I'm like, oh shit, dilemma! I'd almost rather stay home.

But honestly, Pete Wentz, STOP BEING AMAZING, I'M SUPPOSED TO DISLIKE YOU MUCHLY. (Let's pretend I haven't had a hard-on for you since December.) (My spell-check wants me to change "muchly" to "mutely", but that doesn't make sense, because back in my dark days, when I disliked Pete Wentz [I was young and naive, alright?!], it wasn't anywhere near mutely. It was very, very vocally. I am ashamed.)

Ahaha, Pete Wentz, I think posting this just made you my favorite person ever. And possibly Ryan Ross' least favorite. Also, this was posted along with the caption, "arent you glad i was there from the very start with a camera in hand at all times. these are really some of my best friends on the planet", which just makes it even more awesome.

ETA: If you're looking for some summer pick-me-up music, I highly recomend Great Big Sea's latest, Fortune's Favour. This is the first single, Walk on the Moon, which you may or may not like, but don't stop there. There are other tunes like this, heavy on the sugary inspirational messages, and then there are a few sea shanties, as per usual. Feel good summer music, all the way through. The best, though, are the hilarious liner notes, ( that I have decided to type up for you. )

So, in case some of the non-bandomers haven't been following the story, Pete Wentz posted in his blog and conducted a poll about how shitty MTV doesn't play any videos anymore. Then a few days alter he posted about how someone contacted him about a show, but he couldn't say much. And then last night he posted this:

so i guess all of my whining has helped push the idea along. mtv has greenlit an hour long show to be aired live once a week this summer. it will have five video premieres played in their entirety plus one classic/vintage video. also one artist will appear on every episode and play live with no lip synching.

Like or dislike Pete Wentz, I still think that sounds pretty cool, and I wish Much Music would do something similar. I'm assuming that by "premieres" he means videos never played before, brand-new ones, new bands, up and coming ones that would otherwise not get any exposure. I mean, I know that it's in the same spirit of those crappy reality shows that they offered this show to Pete (he's Pete Wentz, everyone will watch!!), but I think that however it happened, it'll be something good.